i don't feel like dancing - scissor sisters

i'm obsessed with this song right now. majorly. i want to be in their music video.

i'm feeling a bit meh. i cancelled my plans a bit for the weekend. planned to go to perugia for the chocolate festival but it seemed to far and rushed for the money. instead i'll go to bologna with julie and mal to look for some winter wear. it's damn cold.

should be doing some reading tonight. or research on carlo scarpa. classes are picking up. but i'm not. and everything takes twice (or thrice) as long in italian. group projects are beginning. and i don't know when i will have time to meet with everyone. my intensive language program class is still going on even though it should be over. but the schedule is all fucked so it's all over the place and basically takes up any free time i want to be using to meet with my groups. sigh. i'm kind of over it. i don't know if i really improved much. i feel like the worst student (ie of brenna jeremiah and i). i talk without thinking usually and forget to conjugate my verbs. i think i'm trying but i'm probably not.

i told the richmond girls i didn't want to go out tonight. but now i'm a big bored. i want brendan to call. i guess it's a phase but i am pretty lonely right now. i miss my gilroy girls. my berkeley girls. studio kids. and brendan. i like everyone ive been spending time with but i hate how long friendships take to develop. i think i miss studio. i wish i was busy. (i should be busy but i've been avoiding).

i've taken to writing obsessive letters to my boyfriend at every possible moment. i feel like such a freak. bike to class like a maniac. get in 10 minutes early. sit at the bench in the park outside the walls and scirbble madly for a couple minutes. always just little notes. things i want to remember to tell him. things that happened. things i want to show him when he comes....it's a phase. it'll pass.

i payed my last fee instalment for paris. going in a week and a half! pretty excited. a week in pullman. we get to see everything! including the villa savoy. (which i can now pronounce correctly, thanks manon.)

i wiped out um. twice in the past two days on my bike. the streets are so narrow and i have a hard time getting out of the ways of cars. the first time i got close to the curb and though i could push myself along with my foot. unfortunately i'm too short so instead shoe fell off and i lost balance and fell over. jimena couldn't stop laughing. the car stopped to see if i was okay. i ripped a hole in my favorite tights. the second time i tried to ride up on the sidewalk but misjudged how tall it was and instead ran into it. and the the wall. it's all good. i can't be afraid of my bike because otherwise it would just take way too long to get anywhere. at least people know my nerdster tendencies now and still like me.

i'm finding more and more that i slip into italian with friends and don't notice. i like it.

ps. picture from the wine festival in treviso last sunday. local wine. some roasted chestnuts. tiramisu. little dancing. lead to a fun day until the train home is crowded and hot.